Posted 8/20/09
Sometimes I ask myself WTF is wrong? I have had a history of getting involved with abusive men, and giving to much of myself and getting nothing in return, go figure.
Six years ago I walked away from a really bad situation and got on top of my game, found a career that cashed out $40,000 a year two kids set in a nice apartment, shopping, going out with the girls and just being the new me...sounds scrumptious, right?
THEN.... My grandmother dies and I get back in touch with my oldest child's father, and yes, he was abusive,but hey that was ten years ago before he went to prison,go figure.
And there went the spiral. At first it was good smoked something, laughed, talked-which as a couple we never did and it felt new, and of course the sex was the bomb, this is my soul mate, right? go figure..
I had fallen in love and no one could tell me different, we lived 900 miles away, and I started flying him in to spend the weekends and next thing you know I planned the next child, go figure... And quit my job to move to him and then the abuse began,go figure....
Now I'm back to square one trying to get back on top and wondering why it took losing everything just to truly find me, go figure.....
Six years ago I walked away from a really bad situation and got on top of my game, found a career that cashed out $40,000 a year two kids set in a nice apartment, shopping, going out with the girls and just being the new me...sounds scrumptious, right?
THEN.... My grandmother dies and I get back in touch with my oldest child's father, and yes, he was abusive,but hey that was ten years ago before he went to prison,go figure.
And there went the spiral. At first it was good smoked something, laughed, talked-which as a couple we never did and it felt new, and of course the sex was the bomb, this is my soul mate, right? go figure..
I had fallen in love and no one could tell me different, we lived 900 miles away, and I started flying him in to spend the weekends and next thing you know I planned the next child, go figure... And quit my job to move to him and then the abuse began,go figure....
Now I'm back to square one trying to get back on top and wondering why it took losing everything just to truly find me, go figure.....
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